Mineeeeeeeeee

today is totally not a good day..
when i say not good, it means no good..
but happie thing is..it's mar's birthday =)
HAPPIE BIRTHDAY!!!
soooo, lots of cases..
one by one makes my mood even more worse..
it's like, STOP ADDING FUEL INTO THE FIRE CAN!!
i donno why, and i donno what i can do..

first case, i won't say..

second case..im so sorrie that i cant go celebrate ur b'dae with you, mar..
but there is still the other five mah, i donno that i spoilt ur mood..
and you are sad about it, but i really really wanted to celebrate ur b'dae..
it's like, i donno when i can celebrate with you le lah, maybe five years ltr??
sorrie sorrie..
and, i donno what de hell..
i've finished my work, my tution work..
and i donno why i still cant go out loh..
'you last min rush, do finish ur work on time when you have requests'
it's like, i never finish my work you don let me go out..
now i finished my work, you also don let me go..
then what you want me do lah..if you don wan me to go out, JUST SAY LOH..

third case, freaking pissed during training..
i know the first case, affected my mood for the WHOLE DAY..
even during ncc lah, i think all the ppl can see that i got pissed very easily..
so it's like i really cnt control lah..and at that time i really wanna rest..
it's sort of the first time i so 'angry' about ncc stuff..
so yah, i apologised to him..but at least when i attitude him,
i still apologise to him at last, so it's settled =) not hurt feelings, hehe..
and there is still PLENTY of stuff that im not happie about..
just tell me how you feel when ppl bullshyts to you..
i swear, when i scold the sec3s, it's bcos i really think is not up to standard..
even though i have this angry look when im pissed,
THAT DOESNT MEANT THAT I WILL ATTITUDE THEM..
just when and where the hell i got punish my sec3s when im pissed with my own affair..
yes i do love to shout out when im pissed,
but that doesnt mean i shouted at them when i feel like it rite..
i do care about the sec3s, though i might not be SOOO caring..

4th, ermm..i donno leh, i don think have le bah..
maybe it's im pissed about myself, cos i cant control my feelings??
i know angry about own affairs during ncc is totally not a good thing..
but i tried to calm down, when so many ppl asked me to..
but when i see smth wrong in training, then i got so pissed, haha..
i will change, and control..if not will show that im improfessional mahh..
so yah..and at least there's some funny things during training..
i can see my delano son, air cadet, gets so..confused? when he lose the timing..
haha, very funny loh! i mean the way he like so kan chiong, haha..
so he's the dance-breaker, and im the singer..hahhaa..
be jealous! cos i can talk well and sing =))) jkjk!! haha
finally, i know the TRUUEEEE definition of BACKSTABBING..
so next time, if you were to use this word..make sure you know how to use it..
if not, you can ask me abt its meaning =)
and thanks to xiangyi, siwei, leeyen, izuan for after sch till after training..
hehe, i think that's it for today..
TRA!~