Mineeeeeeeeee

ohhh, today is such a depressed day..
morning was already a bad start..
and yah, this post would be 'emo' and long..

mum says u have prob and never tell, which is equal to havin a hard time to communicating with them..then when u tell them ur problems, they will tend to say, 'you arh so young think so much for wad, always gets into alot of trouble..so this few days, i have been trying about my 'problems' but not entirely all..so this morning, i asked my mom, if i shld go to hq with my friends..to change uniform for the sec1s..she said, 'dependss on you, you always have alot of 'ideas' de..' so, i was very pissed, actually attitude her and went off..and she say, 'everytime say you abit then u so easily get angry'..i totally have no idea what parents are thinking..but anyway, when i got to sch, i actually called my mom and apologise to her for losing my temper..so i hope she really forgives me..

then, was trying to talk to her..not trying hard cos not that serious yet, but tryin to..after today, i know i shld and i can do to help our friendship..well, i hope it works, but i also don think it would?? anyway, still okie with her, i guess..

and next, 'YOU'!! i have no idea what 'you' thinking, i cant read your mind..so are you trying to avoid me now? and never even give me a reason, i really donno..

i got sooo upset when i heard something..
don ask what it is, cos i wont tell..
was really depressed and this blur stong ruiliang are trying to be lame? [no offence]

during training, saw her crying, as fs crying for her part..shows me that, she cares alot for her kids..im really impressed and shocked that she actually gone through all those that i haven been..and if i were her, i think i would have given up, crying and beggin mr chan to let me change post? haha, anyway..yah, hardly saw her cry, was surprised..but she was okie after awhile later, the same way as she is..the sec3s was still okie lah, 1st try out, so i won say so muich lah, but sometimes blur arh, but not bad lah, so keep it up =)

after training, talked about next wed sec3 acting post with ma'am..hoho, we had a long long chat, and my parents was so pissed cos i arrived home at 9plus o.O so yah, i lazy to say..but i think, the chat was meaningful, cos i know wad's my bad point that the seniors think i have..and how i can actually have izuan as my afs aka pa..she say until, she was shocked to know we can get along so well..well, im surprised too, haha..then when i got back home, i didnt get what i expected..didnt get scolding from parents, i think..now it's late..

she scolded me just now? saying that she cant believe my words now, OUCH! do you know how much it hurts? ouch ouch ouch..

what a day,
imagine u haven settle this problem, and another just pop put..
sian, and u cant find a solution so fast, then what you do loh..
anyway, im tired to think of all those now,
TRA!~